Updated: Dec 31, 2019
Recently I made the leap and Indie-published book one in my Damien Kaine Series, Innocence Taken. I didn’t come to that decision lightly.
If you are like me, you have sent out well over 100 query letters. Maybe if you are like me, every time you received a rejection letter, you questioned everything about your writing. Maybe you doubted yourself as a writer. You may even be thinking you just wasted a year of your life.
If that wasn't you, you're lucky. That was me. Every time I received a rejection letter.
It came to a point in my journey of becoming a published writer, when I had to make some choices. I had to decide if traditional publishing was my only way to achieve my dreams of success, or if there were other ways I could reach those goals.
I had to take a long look at myself. What did success mean to me? Was it having my book in libraries and brick and mortar stores? Was it getting on the New York Times best sellers list?
I wanted all those things. I still do.
I decided to trust myself and my ability as a writer, despite the many rejection letters I received.
That was easier said than done. One day I would say fuck em'. I'm going to do it no matter what. Other days or even just hours later I told my husband I was giving up writing, that I sucked at it.
I flipped flopped daily. Hourly.
One day my husband asked me why I gave so much power to people who didn't give a rat's ass about me or my success?
Why did I? It came down to one thing. FEAR. Fear of failure.
Fear is a nasty bitch. She comes in and fills your head with self-doubt, and peels away any confidence you have, layer by layer. Leaving you raw and exposed.
Remember this - fear only has the power you give her.
Don't let fear steal your dreams of being an author. You may fail. There is no guarantee that you are even a decent writer. But you will never know if you don't try. If you don't go after your dreams of being an author, you will one day wake up and regret it. That I can guarantee.
It isn't easy. I won't lie. It was the hardest thing I ever did for myself. But even if I fail, I will at least be able to say I tried. I would rather fail trying, than sitting back wondering what would've happened.
Think about what you want as a writer. When you decide what that is, and what you want, go for it. Do whatever it takes to reach your goals and fulfill your dreams.
Above all else be FEARLESS.
I write crime fiction horror, thriller, and paranormal novels. My time in the Coast Guard and my degree in Forensic Chemistry helps me create fantastic stories.
If I'm not writing, I am binge watching Netflix and probably drinking whiskey.